--*s e l f i s h.

I fell for you without f a l l i n g.
stalling to allow my feelings to grow.
show my vulnerability. humility now controls my thoughts.
fought the inevitable for the longest. wrongest mistake I never made.
so why am I not able to let it go.


Didn't know I'd be left looking for all the answers to unasked questions.
C O N F E S S I O N, I wanted this to happen. to work.
but the stubbornness that lurked within us got the BEST of us.
leaving me with the WORST of you. fussed & cussed to re-new the best in you.


The one I grew to know has slowly died.
as hard as I tried. as much as I cried.
lied about giving a damn. the only person I scammed was myself.
selfish is what I've become as I've begun to erase you like I drew you.


They say "out of sight, out of mind", but being blind only 
reminds me of what I used to see.
the kind of person you used to be.
I REFUSE to be another "h e r". blur my vision. question my intuition..
as I position myself to take back control. console my mind, body and soul.


I fold. as this hole gets deeper and deeper.
I bury the hurt, anger, expectations, frustration.
Eliminating temptation to contact you.
I've subtracted you from my life.
my selfish sacrifice.