--*POETRY IN M O T I O N . .

Every time the beat d r o p s. I swear my heart beat STOPS.
As it hip-hops in rhythm with the song. I could do this all day long.
Songs on repeat.  The melody is TOO sweet to hit >>next>>.
And the lyrics? The lyrics, while it perplexes some, it reflects what
we've begun.  What we've become.  And thus comes the bass.

P O U N D I N G.
Sounding so close, yet so f a r...
Surrounding every thing that could be ours.
If you give me these 16 bars I swear I'll make a masterpiece.
Release a hit record.  Chord for chord I'll pour my heart and soul
into this song.

If only you promise to sing along..
For the long haul.
I'm willing to fall, but you?
YOU have to be willing to catch.
To patch and revise what has been compromised
by another.  Others have been out of tune, off-key;

stroking all..the wrong...notes.

But this, this could be the antidote.
The cure is in the potion.
Take the lead, I'll follow,
as we dance to POETRY IN MOTION.

--*End Scene

He was the #1 contender.the pretender.but he played his role.
They told me not to get involved with you.to leave that puzzle unsolved with you.
Do you even care how hard I tried to find the missing pieces? Pieces of myself were
lost in the process.Obsessed with changing YOU changed ME.3rd-degree burns left
pain and scars on my ability to trust.must I remind you it was YOU who sought ME!
nearly fought for ME.and once you realized you had caught me.you forgot me.

See, this was all just a game for you.a dog after the kitty cat.yes, in fact, I was merely a chase.
defaced and replaced.space out every time I think of who you could've been.what we could've been.
So I pretend and suppress the feeling.I'm dealing and with time comes healing.Sealing my heart until someone
proves they're worth peeling my heart.exposing the layers.Answering my prayers.

So I play guard.Daring one to play forward.come forward and break this guard I'm entitled to hold.
As the recital unfolds and the curtains close.the credits role.the act is over.you've been discovered.

--*s e l f i s h.

I fell for you without f a l l i n g.
stalling to allow my feelings to grow.
show my vulnerability. humility now controls my thoughts.
fought the inevitable for the longest. wrongest mistake I never made.
so why am I not able to let it go.


Didn't know I'd be left looking for all the answers to unasked questions.
C O N F E S S I O N, I wanted this to happen. to work.
but the stubbornness that lurked within us got the BEST of us.
leaving me with the WORST of you. fussed & cussed to re-new the best in you.


The one I grew to know has slowly died.
as hard as I tried. as much as I cried.
lied about giving a damn. the only person I scammed was myself.
selfish is what I've become as I've begun to erase you like I drew you.


They say "out of sight, out of mind", but being blind only 
reminds me of what I used to see.
the kind of person you used to be.
I REFUSE to be another "h e r". blur my vision. question my intuition..
as I position myself to take back control. console my mind, body and soul.


I fold. as this hole gets deeper and deeper.
I bury the hurt, anger, expectations, frustration.
Eliminating temptation to contact you.
I've subtracted you from my life.
my selfish sacrifice.

--*CONSENSUAL

You tried, twice.

I was tied to another.

but obliged.even took it futher.

we had an understanding.

Never demanding.more than enough.

tough skin was a necessity.access to the heart was limited.

damn near restricted."conflict of interest".

but I grew an interest in you.

leaped hurdle after hurdle until I tripped over you.

Never been accident prone.but I condoned this.

drawn to his E G O.

where did "HE" go?

the guy I met.

the guy I let into my thoughts.my heart.

my personal s p a c e.

faced the reality of the situation.all the unnecessary frustration.

the natural flirtation and temptation.minus "relations".

and I was left with faulty expectations.

of what we were SUPPOSE to become.

done did my share of dirt.

maybe I deserved the hurt.

the torture that rattles my heart and my brain.

as I go iNsAn3.

maybe I brought about this rain.

this hurricane.

as the wind blows..I KNOW.

what's real.WE had a deal.

now I must deal.with this.

--*moore_ambie<3

--*HANGover

Headache bakes in the temple.simple, careless mistakes.countless shots I begin to take.
For my sake, I should stop.drop the glass & run.but it's already beginning.
head's spinning.rooms spinning.Sinning, while praying for a bail out.
Wishing you'd get the hell out.my head.While dreaming of you in my bed.
I said I was done, but as I take that 1st sip.I slip back into old habits.gotta have it.
Like an addict, the numbness is sensational.Euphorically speaking.seeking a way out.
About to run out.of liquor.HIT HER!
Tolerance level is at its peak.so to speak now would be deadly.
And then, the medley begins to play.as I sway.I'm drifting away.
everything goes gray.as I wait on the day.to come.I succumb to it.
And thus come the vomit.
I begin to throw up the bullshit.the foolery.the false hope.
It's time to cope with this hangover.it's all over.time to get sober.

--*moore_ambie

--*KARMA

Revolving door.I swear I don't care no more.It just baffles me.How you hassle me.
Wrestled with the relationship when it was.and when it was no longer?now you long for her.
You treated her like a convenient store.coming and going as you very well pleased.
with such ease.PLEASE!yo bad.Truth be told, I was the "best you ever had".
and sadly,you know it.It shows.in your walk.in your talk.hell, in your clothes.
Hoes got the best of your conscious.Took advantage of your [ego].
"MANdingo" overid your brain.trained you to follow your dick.Pick the "quick-fix" over me.
over us.was it worth it?!I hope she sucked you real good.fcuked you real good.enough.
this is beyond "tough love".we're done.You played me to the left.now.there's nothing left.
I'm gone.I've grown.

--*moore_ambie<3

--*DETOX

3-step process:
Admit.Submit.Commit.
plays on repeat.I don't want a repeat life though.Defeat my life.Because I can't beat this addiction that has become so rife.And the ultimate strife, is MYSELF.
Left turns that resulted in crash & burns.But the yearn to do better.to be better.Never stranded her.Only demanded of her to try.
So why are we STILL conflicted?Addicted to pain.can't let go of the cocaine.My Heart envies my Brain.and its ability to analyze.rationalize what the Heart merely sympathizes with.
The Brain tells me to let it go.While the Heart stays faithful.so.I'm letting it go.
THINKING is all I know.Slow to feel, it's not reliable.The Heart isn't stable.isn't able to make that decision.at least.not yet.forget what I want, remember what I need.and revisions MUST be done..
W I T H D R A W A L has begun.

--*moore_ambie<3